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Hey everyone,I have been feeling much better lately.I am still a little concerned about my future but I am not worrying too much about it for now.This seems strange for me to say because I was always concerned about my future but something changed my mind recently to open my eyes and mind to a new perspective.I did not mention this in my last post,on Christmas I spent time with my family as usual, Jill was there as well seening has how no matter what happens she is still family. Hey Julie thanks for the email it really helped me.
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Friday, December 28, 2007
Thursday, December 27, 2007
Big Secret...
Sorry everyone, if there are others out there...I have a big secret that I will not revel until Sarah can read about it.I feel bad as it is, I have been posting and will continue to, she is going to have to catch up on everything when she returns.Everything seems to be alright for now.
Friday, December 21, 2007
I'm ok, I guess, better now.
Hey Julie, everyone(just in case there are other readers-I dout) I was feeling a little depressed the pass few days, I felt alone and did not know what to do.I know I may seem to be a loser without friends,maybe I am a loser but I do have friends.I do not know what my problem is but even when I am with my friends I feel alone. What is wrong with me?!Julie I am sorry that I have not posted, I will try to, everyday for now on.Thank you for being there for me Julie it really means a lot to knowing there is someone out there.I guess I really am not alone.
Sunday, December 16, 2007
Alone Again...
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Here I am, alone again...I am not sure what to do.Julie if you are out there and you read this I am now allowing anonymous comments, please post a comment I need to know that someone is out there.I do not know what to say.I realize that the entire Internet community could be reading my blog but I feel strange posting how I truly feel right now because Sarah is reading.What is wrong with me?Can someone tell me exactly what is wrong with me?!?
In case anyone noticed I have not mentioned Jill, it is because I have ceased all contact with her for now.I feel guilty and free at the same time and I just do not understand it.These feelings do not happen too often with me, I guess this time I am just tired of falling victim to Jill one too many times, no more.Until I straighten things out and she does aswell, that is just the way it is going to be,a life without Jill around.
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Here I am, alone again...I am not sure what to do.Julie if you are out there and you read this I am now allowing anonymous comments, please post a comment I need to know that someone is out there.I do not know what to say.I realize that the entire Internet community could be reading my blog but I feel strange posting how I truly feel right now because Sarah is reading.What is wrong with me?Can someone tell me exactly what is wrong with me?!?
In case anyone noticed I have not mentioned Jill, it is because I have ceased all contact with her for now.I feel guilty and free at the same time and I just do not understand it.These feelings do not happen too often with me, I guess this time I am just tired of falling victim to Jill one too many times, no more.Until I straighten things out and she does aswell, that is just the way it is going to be,a life without Jill around.
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Saturday, December 15, 2007
Alone
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Hello to all (if any) my readers.Sarah is off of the Internet for now, she said until January so I am not sure who is reading this,maybe Julie.She said she reads my blog but she just does not post.Perhaps I should allow anonymous comments so I could have at least Julie...Well hello Julie-if you are there, somewhere, reading this if not I guess I will just have to see if there is anyone still out even the least bit interested in my blog and what I have to say.
I feel strangely, alone.Why is this?I have friends and family, why does one person I never really met, matter so much?
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Hello to all (if any) my readers.Sarah is off of the Internet for now, she said until January so I am not sure who is reading this,maybe Julie.She said she reads my blog but she just does not post.Perhaps I should allow anonymous comments so I could have at least Julie...Well hello Julie-if you are there, somewhere, reading this if not I guess I will just have to see if there is anyone still out even the least bit interested in my blog and what I have to say.
I feel strangely, alone.Why is this?I have friends and family, why does one person I never really met, matter so much?
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Thursday, December 13, 2007
Things are looking up
I can't believe it! I have great news! As I said before, I had no choice but to tell my parents about what happened. They hired a lawyer for me (not theirs') he seems like a good guy, he said that I should stop trying to protect Jill. He said that I should tell my side as it is, not protecting Jill, he said if I tell on Jill then she could face some charges but since I was the victim I could get all the charges dropped. If this is true, than Jill is going to have to face what she did to me. I did nothing to her and she practically ruined my life in one day. For once I am not going to let her get away with this, I tried so hard to get to where I am right now and I do not want anything to jeopardise my future- not even my own sister.
Finals are over! I had my final final today, yes! FREEDOM!
Finals are over! I had my final final today, yes! FREEDOM!
Wednesday, December 5, 2007
HELLLLLLLLLLP!!!!
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Sarah and Jose, thanks for being there for me at my time of need. I do not know what I am going to do about this whole situation. I have no one to turn to, I am so alone, I have friends but I do not want to bother or get them involved with this particular part of my life. Alone and without anyone I truly trust for advice I had no choice but to turn to my parents for help. As much as I did not want to, I was forced to tell them what had happened. The odd part for me was that I still wanted to protect Jill, so after telling I felt terrible. Sarah..! Jose..! HELLLLLLLLLLP!!!
I still have to find a lawyer for myself, my parents want me to use theirs but I do not think I would be comfortable with him since he knows me and Jill personally, since I was about 5 or 6. I do not want to influence any more negativity towards Jill.
I just still can not understand how could Jill do this to me after all that I have done for her. By the way, remember how her car is not drivable so I thought that I would have to drive her around? Not going to happen after all, as part of the terms of my bail, I am not allowed to drive, my licence was suspended at least until my court date. Get this crazy shit, Jill actually had the audacity to ask if I wanted her to drive me around in my car until I straightened everything out! She is seriously disturbed, not only did I reject her offer, I told she had to find her own around, I would rather take the bus right now than have her around me and as I said previously, I do not want to explain anything to my friends so asking them is out of the question.
What should I do? My life was going great up until now, at least decent. I am worried that this could effect me for the rest of my life, what if everything does not turn out to be as well as I could only hope? I fought all my life to reach this point and now I can almost see everything come crashing down before my very eyes.
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Sarah and Jose, thanks for being there for me at my time of need. I do not know what I am going to do about this whole situation. I have no one to turn to, I am so alone, I have friends but I do not want to bother or get them involved with this particular part of my life. Alone and without anyone I truly trust for advice I had no choice but to turn to my parents for help. As much as I did not want to, I was forced to tell them what had happened. The odd part for me was that I still wanted to protect Jill, so after telling I felt terrible. Sarah..! Jose..! HELLLLLLLLLLP!!!
I still have to find a lawyer for myself, my parents want me to use theirs but I do not think I would be comfortable with him since he knows me and Jill personally, since I was about 5 or 6. I do not want to influence any more negativity towards Jill.
I just still can not understand how could Jill do this to me after all that I have done for her. By the way, remember how her car is not drivable so I thought that I would have to drive her around? Not going to happen after all, as part of the terms of my bail, I am not allowed to drive, my licence was suspended at least until my court date. Get this crazy shit, Jill actually had the audacity to ask if I wanted her to drive me around in my car until I straightened everything out! She is seriously disturbed, not only did I reject her offer, I told she had to find her own around, I would rather take the bus right now than have her around me and as I said previously, I do not want to explain anything to my friends so asking them is out of the question.
What should I do? My life was going great up until now, at least decent. I am worried that this could effect me for the rest of my life, what if everything does not turn out to be as well as I could only hope? I fought all my life to reach this point and now I can almost see everything come crashing down before my very eyes.
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Monday, December 3, 2007
WAKE UP CALL!
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Sarah, you being probably my only reader, I purposely waited to post this when I knew that you would read it. Over the weekend I had a terrible wake up call I wish I would not have had. It was Friday night and I decided to be a good brother and agree to spend time with my recently depressed sister. I know that if I had not gone something bad worse could have happened to her. My sister's name is Jill, she 26 years old, being of legal age to drink she often takes advantage of that right, more when she's depressed.
As usual Jill turned to me, here little brother which cares deeply for her despite my objections of her health hazard lifestyle habits. I drove to her house in my car and when I arrived she seemed fine, better than I expected. Surprised with her I agreed to go with her to a club which I never do. She was fine and did not seem depressed at all so I agreed to go with her, Jill drove us in her car.
When we made it into the club we sat at the bar, that's should have been my first clue something was wrong. Soon after I ignored concerns when she ordered a diet coke instead of an alcoholic beverage. That did not last long. We were having a nice time together she even danced with some guy that was also sitting at the bar near us. (he asked her after discovering that I was only her brother and not her boyfriend) As the night continued she ordered a drink, then another, I told her to take it easy, she promised she would but she still continued to order drinks. Drink 5 she was a little buzzed so I told her that we should leave and she agreed but first I excused myself.
When I returned she begged me to stay, and ordered herself another diet coke so I agreed. unknowingly that some possessed my sister to slip something in my drink while I was away.
Let's just say I was fine to drive(or so I thought) and Jill was not so we left after finishing our drinks she agreed to let me drive since I did not drink. As I was driving I got a massive headache and could not concentrate, long story short, I lost control and hit a pole. Jill suffered from whip blash and a broken arm and another surprise I only had neck aches and after being checked out at the hospital I was arrested for being under the influence of drugs. Jill bailed me out Saturday night.
Great! Not only can I can not trust my own sister and I now have this on spotless my record and have to go to court still and to top it all off since Jill's car is now undrivable I have to drive her around from now on in my car until she can get it replaced. After that happens, I am going to go with my gut and not have any contact with Jill for a while.
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Sarah, you being probably my only reader, I purposely waited to post this when I knew that you would read it. Over the weekend I had a terrible wake up call I wish I would not have had. It was Friday night and I decided to be a good brother and agree to spend time with my recently depressed sister. I know that if I had not gone something bad worse could have happened to her. My sister's name is Jill, she 26 years old, being of legal age to drink she often takes advantage of that right, more when she's depressed.
As usual Jill turned to me, here little brother which cares deeply for her despite my objections of her health hazard lifestyle habits. I drove to her house in my car and when I arrived she seemed fine, better than I expected. Surprised with her I agreed to go with her to a club which I never do. She was fine and did not seem depressed at all so I agreed to go with her, Jill drove us in her car.
When we made it into the club we sat at the bar, that's should have been my first clue something was wrong. Soon after I ignored concerns when she ordered a diet coke instead of an alcoholic beverage. That did not last long. We were having a nice time together she even danced with some guy that was also sitting at the bar near us. (he asked her after discovering that I was only her brother and not her boyfriend) As the night continued she ordered a drink, then another, I told her to take it easy, she promised she would but she still continued to order drinks. Drink 5 she was a little buzzed so I told her that we should leave and she agreed but first I excused myself.
When I returned she begged me to stay, and ordered herself another diet coke so I agreed. unknowingly that some possessed my sister to slip something in my drink while I was away.
Let's just say I was fine to drive(or so I thought) and Jill was not so we left after finishing our drinks she agreed to let me drive since I did not drink. As I was driving I got a massive headache and could not concentrate, long story short, I lost control and hit a pole. Jill suffered from whip blash and a broken arm and another surprise I only had neck aches and after being checked out at the hospital I was arrested for being under the influence of drugs. Jill bailed me out Saturday night.
Great! Not only can I can not trust my own sister and I now have this on spotless my record and have to go to court still and to top it all off since Jill's car is now undrivable I have to drive her around from now on in my car until she can get it replaced. After that happens, I am going to go with my gut and not have any contact with Jill for a while.
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